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the control of the poison. [Apr. 5th, 2005|09:17 pm]
The Psycho-Explorers


[i'm feeling... |quixoticquixotic]
[play this in the jukebox: |nobody's listening-linkin park]

The control of the poison.

This poison.
Seeping through my veins
Does naught
But remind me of this pain.
This shame.
I cannot escape

It takes me nowhere
But I cannot leave.
Forever trapped
In it’s filthy misery.

I run away
Only to return.
I’m falling deeper,
I never learn.

It torments me,
It controls my mind.
Peace and rest
I cannot find.

Until I give in,
My body can’t take it.
I need it. I hate it.
But I can no longer fake it.

….and I have absolutely no idea why I just wrote that. I’ve never touched it, not in my whole life…although sometimes it seems that it would be so easy to just take it now, as a fix, a quick fix. But it doesn’t last, it won’t last..it will only leave me worse than when I started….and probably more alone than I ever was.